Where is my 'superman robe'?
Ori complained that I put some 'no-brainer' on the blog. Up to her challenge, I have 1 more reflection to share here to let her understand that my life in Shanghai is nothing less inspiring compared to hers in Mumbai! ;-) I love you too, darling!
At our Jan's team day, Brodie talked about how 0506 was the last year for most of us to wear our superman robe and do 'incredible' things. I doubted at that moment. I told myself I would have always acted that way. Indeed, it was at that time!
A recent MSN conversation with Ali (MCP Indonesia 0506 and now on the Iceland MC) made me realized that I have lost part of my spirit to make changes - or I shall say I don't believe in fundemental changes but more 'crucial leverages' today. I was a hardcore 'change maniac' who believed that everything not completely right should be changed right away! Now you must start to sympathize those who've worked with me in the past. Hehe...
1 minute ago another friend asked 'what's waiting for you in life?'
Life ahead of me at this moment seems like a blackhole to be honest. Because I start to believe whatever choices I deliberately make at this moment, life always comes to me in an unexpected style. (God, I never believed such 'crap' before. Life was always well under control as much as I believed so!)
Worse than this black hole, I felt like I am going against a natural flow - come'on, I am just waiting for an internship to start the next chapter of my life. I should have felt this way when I firstly chose fulltime AIESEC life 2 years back.
Indeed, did I leave my guts in the AI office? Isn't AIESEC supposed to make me stronger? ;-) Hell yes!
At our Jan's team day, Brodie talked about how 0506 was the last year for most of us to wear our superman robe and do 'incredible' things. I doubted at that moment. I told myself I would have always acted that way. Indeed, it was at that time!
A recent MSN conversation with Ali (MCP Indonesia 0506 and now on the Iceland MC) made me realized that I have lost part of my spirit to make changes - or I shall say I don't believe in fundemental changes but more 'crucial leverages' today. I was a hardcore 'change maniac' who believed that everything not completely right should be changed right away! Now you must start to sympathize those who've worked with me in the past. Hehe...
1 minute ago another friend asked 'what's waiting for you in life?'
Life ahead of me at this moment seems like a blackhole to be honest. Because I start to believe whatever choices I deliberately make at this moment, life always comes to me in an unexpected style. (God, I never believed such 'crap' before. Life was always well under control as much as I believed so!)
Worse than this black hole, I felt like I am going against a natural flow - come'on, I am just waiting for an internship to start the next chapter of my life. I should have felt this way when I firstly chose fulltime AIESEC life 2 years back.
Indeed, did I leave my guts in the AI office? Isn't AIESEC supposed to make me stronger? ;-) Hell yes!
posted by Jingwei @ 9:15 PM
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i guess very often we paint ourselves in different colours after we leave aiesec. Why? Because we are not sure whether we would fit to the society otherwise.
Why do we want to fit into the society? Because we believe that once we are in, it is easier to change the things we wanted to change. So the question is whether we want to go the more complicated way of not adapting, staying the "dream big, make a change" guy we were in aiesec and not adapting but radically trying to change the world...
Or do we want to adapt first, change our colours (at least just a little bit) and then (after we are in the right position, after we are settled and secure) change the world.
I believe we shouldnt change too much. However, sometimes we connect our purpose after aiesec as well too much purely with what job we choose. There is more than just the job that defines whether you have an impact, guts, etc. after aiesec...
Hey Jingwei :) good to see you blogging so much! I have to agree with Peter on your choice of job... you can make changes outside your job (participate in community groups, dialogues with young people at schools? etc) and still gain the skills that you need in your job to make other types of impact in the future.
I see an internship as a way to open up our eyes to how the world works first and then learning how to make changes from there. You don't need to be CSR to learn. Go to Europe somewhere and study some politics :):)
Hey Peter and Amy,
Thanks! Thanks! Very good advice especially I do have so much time to explore how I can do something for the community here or even just the LCs in Shanghai!
I do want to remain my courage. I sometimes got disappointed by myself when I found myself losing the spirit to fight or got too concerned of failures, which is not necessary.
I'll first do something then share how I feel. Again, cheers and thanks for such genuine advice!
Love!
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