Source of energy

Once again, I was invited to speak, of course by AIESEC, at its alumni event and national conference. I am always energized being with AIESEC - guess now it is my comfort zone. Being involved in another 2 NGOs, I still strongly feel no organization runs like AIESEC which engages and develops its members so much.

Now I am working on GMAT and waiting to be on board. I feel I need to force myself to open the GMAT book to study. I also feel scared of long working hours once I start.

This makes me wonder, I have not been fully charged with energy and inspiration ever since I finished AIESEC back July 2006. What is wrong with me now? Either I am trying to adapt to the world outside of AIESEC? Either I have not found what I am truly passionate about? Or both? Maybe I am overly negative now and should just wait and see once it starts.

On the other hand, I really dream about studying again - maybe MBA, maybe development science. And go into the field of poverty alleviation based on BOP theories. I can feel how much I will be driven by such a mission. And hopefully this long-term plan can well motivate me for my next 2 year's of work life.